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ANOTHER BIRTHDAY

Another birthday, it doesn't even feel right. It just a normal day. Well 365 days later, things haven't really changed. I'm still struggling to lose and maintain my weight. I haven't really learnt my lessons especially when it comes to love. Still struggling to find some who is genuine that I can really relate to. I didn't say someone perfect because I'm not even close to perfection. But someone who is very honest and fully committed. I'm still going through the motions, trying to find my legs.
I still think about my dad everyday because I know his love and acceptance could have really changed some aspect in my life. In school doing well but there's more room for improvement. I don't really think I'm actually going to find love and experienced that incredible happiness some people talk about but it's all good.


I've met Mr AssClown who's not satisfied with all the numerous girls he has and still seeking for more everyday. I've met Mr Hypocrite who tells you things and can even relate to you because all his siblings are sisters but act hot and cold with you. I've met Mr Really nice guy, very real, refreshingly honest who happens not be ready but is willing to build something on benefit basis. I've met Mr Ready who doesn't seem to be ready but at the end blame you for things you didn't do. I've really lost count of the heart breaks and tears. I don't really learn,  I always want to see the good in people even when there isn't any good in them.


So on this day, May Chapter 22 verse 24, I'm hoping to achieve the goals I've set for myself especially my life at the gym. I'm looking forward to improve my relationship with my friends (I'm grateful for them).


"For what's money without happiness? Or hard times without the people you love? Though I'm not sure what's about to happen next, I asked for strength from the Lord up above because I've been strong so far but I can feel my grip loosening" (J.Cole).


This new me is looking forward to turn on the BossLady attitude in me. I'm going to smile more and more than ever. I'm hoping for the tears to stop falling. Yes I want love, that good good loving but it can wait. I don't really have faith in that lately. So to me, to all the lost dreams, love lost, the heart breaks, to the things I really deserve but don't have yet, to the tears, to the struggle, to my beautiful soul and heart. Happy 24th birthday to me. All I'm asking for is long life and strength from our Heavenly Father to fulfill my mortal purpose. Though all the struggles, I still love my life. I'm not going to give up because there's no such thing as a life that's better than mine.I know I'm never going to be happy until i love mine.


I honestly think my mum deserves this day more than I do. That incredible woman gave birth to me on this day and have fought for my life and happiness through it all. Without her, I wouldn't be here and I'm grateful for her life.


"Thank you mama dry your eyes, there is no reason to cry. You made a genius and I, won't take it for granted, I won't settle for lesser, I won't take what they handed. No I'm going to take what they owe me and show you that I can fly"!! Happy Birthday to Me... To the King!!! #KhloMoney



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