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THE GRACE OF GOD

A single picture became my motivation to the beginning of this journey. I never wanted to get my picture taken because I knew I had packed on some weight. There came in the comments from my course mates telling me how fat I’ve gotten and so on. Some even went to the extent of saying I’m not coming to class because I said I’ve gained weight; that was sad. 

The comments they passed did hurt but it didn’t motivate me to change my lifestyle. As time went by, I got so used to their fat body shaming and comments. But what they didn’t know was the fact that I had already given up on myself: so nothing they said was actually going to push me to change. Even with that I’ll start eating healthy for a minute, hit the gym and give up on that same week. Until my course mate took a picture of me when I wasn’t looking after I had instructed him not to take any picture of me. 

A single picture became my motivation to the beginning of this journey.

My first look at the picture, I asked them ‘who’s this girl’ and a friend answered, “That’s you”. My next question was is it that bad?? Yes it was that bad. I couldn’t even recognize myself. That was my breaking moment. I had to cry for a bit. I had blocked every pain and negative comments with food and really deep down I felt miserable. 


On June 5th my friend Angela and I decided to change our ways for good and with my friend Henry’s wedding approaching it became my biggest motivation to drop some few pounds. I started at a whopping 104.8kg. I had reached 94kg 3 days prior to my friend’s wedding.
 I started at a whopping 104.8kg
 
my friend Angela and I



After the wedding, I didn’t have any zeal to continue my fitness journey. Things needed to change. The biggest motivation was no more. 


As I sat down and pondered about everything, I realized it was time to give everything up to the man above. I started praying more than I used and sometimes I cried in my prayers because I was completely lost; I didn’t know what to do with myself. Thanks to my friend dear Winifred, I was able to join their 21 day fasting by the church she attends (Empowerment Worship Centre). 


Two days to the end of the fasting, I got an answer to my prayer. My strength was so renewed. It was like a blueprint of my life has been handed over to me. I hit the gym on that same day and I’ve never looked back.


I came from a point where I thought I was a lost cause, a point where I felt so miserable and tired…to a point where I felt so free, peaceful, assured and secured. For me,I saw it to be Grace. That was the Grace of God. He lifted me back up and planted my feet firmly. 




On this day, i stand so proud , almost 40 pounds lighter and it's the Lords will not mine.
FROM 104.8KG TO 88.4 KG


That’s what happen when you don’t lean on your own understanding and strength. I’ve learnt some much after Henry’s wedding and I’ll be sharing it bit by bit …………..Watch out for the space←↑

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