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REDEMPTION



Life challenges are definitely not fun but its super worth it. if someone told me I would be saying the “worth it” part, I would stand up and point them out. This particular post marks the end of my writing for 2017; I couldn’t get much done anyway (in terms of writing).  I can’t say it’s my best year yet but I can definitely say it’s the year that has really taught me so many things about myself. it taught me acceptance, letting go and most importantly patience. I found myself getting to know more about God and His ways of doing things for my own good.

The first few months was very difficult for me. I was struggling to find my feet and to put me first. I had a few setbacks here and there. I kept holding on to things I thought I deserved then. I leaned on my own understanding to get things done; thereby beating myself up when things didn’t go as I wanted.




In all I count myself lucky because now I strongly know and believe that all the things I went through was actually preparing me for something greater than I could have ever imagined. The rest of the year became so much easier after learning how to trust God and letting Him take control of my life. I’ve been able to love myself in ways I never thought I would. Things started falling in place without actually struggling for it. I finally recognized myself and the kind of love every individual brought into my life.

Losing weight became less difficult. I was able to love my body in the process of changing it to be something better. And 6 months later here I am with 64 pounds down. 2017 brought a lot of love and happiness in my life. Yes, there was bad days and sometimes extremely difficult days; but I didn’t let that hold me back from finding myself and happiness.

I learned a lot from the teachings of Sarah Jakes Roberts. Her book gave me ground when my friend Ernie introduced it to me. I now have a good relationship with my dad and a few amazing friends. The kind of people in my life currently are the ones who will do anything to see you happy or even take a step further into greatness. My mother has always been amazing and supportive and I thank her for that.

First of all, I want to say a big shoutout to God…yes the man above; I wouldn’t know where I would be without him.



 To my mum for always putting me first and to allowing me to fly and dad and to all my beautiful friends thank you thank you for making 2017 an amazing one. 











 




To Winfred Oberg, baby thank you for always holding me doing. I appreciate your kindness and everything you’ve done for me. God richly bless you.









And to that one man who I torment every day of his life…….Bernard. thank you for sticking around even when it’s difficult to. Thank you for using the word support, love and actually showing me what it means. Thank you for always checking up on me and really being understanding. If you have the world you would give it to me and this much I know.












To anyone who brought heart break, disappointment, tears and challenges…I just want to say thank you for the lessons, experience and growth. And to my amazing readers thank you for going through this roller coaster with me. I promise to give you the best of my writings in the coming year. God bless us all.

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