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SHED A TEAR

I want to shed a tear,
For how I've been made,
For how life has treated me.

I want to shed a tear,
For the chances I've missed,
For the times I've wasted.
I want to shed a tear,
For my poor heart,
For how many times it has been broken,
For so many years of waiting for something real.

I want to shed a tear,
For my life,
For how 24 years of emptiness has been,
For the love and peace there will never be.


I want to shed a tear,
For the people I've met,
For how selfish they have been,
For taken me for granted,
For draining my soul and energy.


I want to shed a tear,
For me,
For all the things I've lost,
For my father,
For how distance has separated us.


I want to shed a tear,
For the baby sister I never had,
For walking alone in this world,
For not being able to read the note I wrote to her,
For dreaming about you everyday,
For accepting that there will never be you.


I want to shed a tear,
For love,
For all the men I've lost,
For making me feel I wasn't good enough,
For the silly compromises,
For the stupid sacrifices,
For coming to the realisation that there's nothing like love.


I want to shed a tear,
For my weight,
For the long hours in the gym,
For years of insane dieting,
For not being able to maintain,
For the mockery of me,
For the offensive words,
For the depressing feeling of not being able to fit in a dress.


I want to shed a tear,
For what life took away from me,
For Austin, Texas,
For dad it took away from me,
For dad I'll never see again,
For the beautiful city I've never been.


I want to shed a tear,
For my life,
For all the things that will never be,
For the mistakes I'm always repeating,
For my heart of gold,
For all the love I will never get,
For the genuine and great people I'll never come in contact with.


I've finally shed a tear,
For the constant depression,
For not being able to school my emotions,
For the men I want that will never be mine,
For all the things I deserve but I'll never get,
For coming to the realisation that I'm all by myself and forever will be alone,

For now understanding that people don't really care,
For my naivety,
For the Love i'm yearning for but will never get,
For the dreams im scared to pursue,
For always underestimating myself.


I WANT TO SHED A TEAR......ALLOW ME!!!! 

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