AFIA'S DIARY

Alright so 2015  didn't  go according to my expectations but I took it in good faith. Honestly I don’t remember a single happy moment in 2015. The tears and disappointments were major…..i lost myself in this year. I met some really terrible people. I was too busy trying to make the people around me feel loved and good to the point where I forgot myself. School was always tiring and sometimes annoying but I managed to enter my second year. I lost the love of my life somewhere in February….and the rest was history. I met new friends but wait can I call them friends?. No because some of them really said despicable things about me which by the way they think I have no clue about it. 2015 I can say that you are a very mean person  because  you took everything away from me. Let me fast forward it to December. I asked for a Christmas miracle from God but I  didn't  get it and I know He knows best. I dint get a call or text from anyone wishing...

"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me...every day." -Nicholas Sparks To the next person who loves me, Whoever you are and where ever you are. I look forward to meeting you. But you should know, I don’t half ass many things in life…love included. So when you love me, I'm the type that loves hard. So when you love me, I'm gonna love you deeply. So when you love me, I'm gonna love only you. Because unlike most…I know how to love the right way. And when I do I’ll change your life, if you're able to reciprocate it. But before we get there, please know a few things… “So it’s not gonna be easy… I don’t know if I’m an easy person to love, because I value love in it’s entirety. I’m very guarded. I don’t trust too many people. I know it has nothing to do with you....

Is it possible for someone to smile whilst dying inside? I've never been a believer of this until it really happened to me. Let me brief you. It started with my friend Derrick who lost the love of his life J. Everyone who knew them was very shocked to hear about their break up because they were the "it" couple. If you weren't actually feeling what my friend was feeling, you would say he's full of drama and exaggeration. Indeed my friend  had the broken heart syndrome and was suffering in silence for months. Let me fast forward....a couple of months later, I made the "stupidest" mistake that cost me the love of my life too and broke my heart into a million tiny pieces They say you don't know what you have until you lose it....true talk. I ended up saying its over to the love of my life Eric and he didn't hesitate accepting it. He really accepted it even after countless times of me begging him to come back to me; there's no way I can blame him ...

Getting on top is easy but staying there is not. I now get it. How did I go from 59kg to 78.5kg??. These past few months, all I've been doing is eating and eating all in the name of celebrating my weight loss. I lost track of my eating and everytime I tried to bounce back, i just couldn't. My taste buds won't allow me. I could literary taste noodles, fried rice or yam in my mouth even when I didn't have those food around. The taste of Coca Cola won't make me breath. And as I gave in to eating all these foods, the weight started pilling up. People I didn't even know started prompting me about it but I felt like I could control it anytime I wanted to. My face has getting bigger (something I hate). The truth was even though I knew the weight was pilling up, even though It was clear that my clothes couldn't fit me anymore, I just couldn't do anything about it. I've lost control....I kept eating anything and kept procrastinating starting a weight loss die...

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Look how fast time has flown, feels like just yesterday that i was baptised to this church. i feel blessed, i feel happy and i cant stop gushing about how sweet the members are in the church and how much they have helped me ever since i was baptised. one this day i remember this two sweet gentlemen (missionaries) who helped me to get into the waters of baptism; Elder Reid and Elder Merrill. of course Elder Reid has returned back home with all the honour and grace and Elder Merrill is still serving. i am thanking for the second chance my Heavenly Father gave to me to make things right in my life. I have watched my branch go from branch to a ward now and i love the work my bishop is doing to help every member. MY BAPTISMAL PICTURE. I'm thankful for this beautiful family i have now, my days are never lonely. i have met such great people and made a lot of friends in the church within this short span. From the young to the old and my adorable seminary students.  MY SEMINARY...

                 Another semester has began and i was introduce to the new subject "sociology". She, i mean the lecturer gave an assignment on the first week and i was supposed to give a candid description about myself and the challenges in my life. i was contemplating whether to do it on not since i was afraid of the things i was going to discover whiles writing my assignment but i took the chance anyway. with the help of stageoflife.com ,i was able to come up with this piece. of course i got some of my references there but it was exactly what i felt and i could relate to it. so question one is the description, two is the challenges and three is how i solved or how to improve on it. so here it goes:               1                     Sometimes it is hard to introduce yourself because you know yourself so well ...

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Dear God thank you for today. I thank you for my life and im so excited to see 2015. The first person to wish me a happy new year was my eternal companion, my bae i guess its because of the time zone awww i adore him. Im the luckiest lady on earth right now. Its not a fucking new year like last year but rather a beautiful one with my beautiful new family and the amazing bae. My mum has been wonderful and still being wonderful. My mum and i we are so ready for 2015 but i just cant wait for 2016 to come......i miss my bae so much. My new year wish is for i and my bae to grow stronger, build and maintain a good relationship with love and respect  and also for my family to be secure and get rooted in the gospel. Happy new year! Morning from Ghana.