AFIA'S DIARY

Today my new life begins, Today I have agency. The power to choose right from wrong, the knowledge of Good and Evil. Today I Make a Change, a change that's going to have a huge impact in my life. A change that's going to bring my more joy more joy slogan I've been saying and seeking for so long. Today I'm going to be a new born baby well in Christ though. At first I wasn't sure about it, I hated change....I'm the type that would like to stick to the old things than to make a change, thinking of how scary it will be when I change things. I wasn't comfortable with the 'thing will never be the same' idea. I remember Elder Reid saying 'some change is good and this particular change you making is going to bring you blessings, joy and peace. Elder Merrill said some years back if I told you how I lived my life and now I'm here in Ghana on a mission you won't believe me and trust me I didn't have an idea of what that change they were talking...

Dear God thank you for today and thank you for a change since you didn't answer my prayer last night too......meaning no more humiliation and Sadness this year I hope so though. The first and the last person I called today was mum. I said to her "Fucking New Year Mum!! You and I against another year again Are you ready??" And I heard her laughing...I guess she's. So I asked myself the same question and my answer was I don't know, didn't plan anything for this year. I see nothing special about 2014 anyway.....its probably just another year for the people around me to continue their selfish and wicked deeds. Dear Mum I hope God gives you enough strength and long life to hold me down until I can start flying and Dear please Bless my mum and make her happy! Morning from Ghana!

Difficult year ever! Yh I know nothing good has ever happened in my life that can bring a big change but this year I completely missed out on everything! My luck ran out on me...Love ran out on me! I found myself messing with the wrong people. I broke down infront of the wrong people. Money ran out on me....had to go through humiliation and embarrassment . Did everything right but nothing worked out for me except my weight. Friends I thought I can count on blew me off...they only called when they needed you to do fuck up things for them. People who thought they all the right to trash you because I'm below their standard also did their own thing......took me for granted. Lost some people along the way. Cried and prayed for almost everything hoping for a change but never saw anything, all I saw was wicked and selfish people walking in and out of my life because I was weak to stop them. The difficult part is missing someone you probably will never see again (dad) kept all the things I...

Well if you've been reading closely you should know by now where I started from right?? Good if you don't remember let me take you down to memory lane....from 105.6KG to 76.7KG. The people who really understand what this means will be truly happy and very emotional for me but the bullies you know they will always be dumb. Slow Ride?? Nooo tough Ride Yes especially when you are around all these pessimist. It has been the most painful journey I've ever embarked on. Finding yourself in the process even losing yourself too to be honest....I know there are beautiful times when you fitting into all those beautiful dresses and feeling light but its not just about that. Control is important and if you lose yourself in the process you lose control and that awful feeling sets in.....that's why its so important to lose the weight for you and not for someone else!!!! We gon fight and We will win regardless!!! Keep The Faith

There are bad people out there....really bad ones regardless of what you've achieved they still going to pick on you regarding your weight....that's one thing I've noticed. I wonder what their problem is, isn't it soooooo super amazing n heartfelt to see someone trying so much to lose weight and its getting successful??? Isn't it something some people should be proud of??? Well we all don't share the same sentiment because some people out there are so eager to bring us down and make us feel like we nothing like (*) *US*Ƥδℓơ ωαђaϐ Яo̅ṁ̭̥̈̅̄έϑ*GH*® BBM PIN:2361E463 check him out . That's where they are wrong we more than great, we are survivors, superman and women, we more of a person than those bullies, we actually fighting a battle most of the people think its impossible especially here in Ghana and I'm winning and I hope you winning too!!! Keep Your Head Up Keep the faith its all about you not them!!! Never Let The Fear Of Striking Out....Keep You Fro...

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty Is the face in the mirror looking back at you You walk around here thinking you're not pretty But that's not true, cause I know you..Hold on, baby, you're losing it The water's high, you're jumping into it And letting go... and no one knows That you cry, but you don't tell anyone That you might not be the golden one And you're tied together with a smile But you're coming undone I guess it's true that love was all you wanted Cause you're giving it away like it's extra change Hoping it will end up in his pocket But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain Oh, cause it's not his price to pay Not his price to pay...

I woke up feeling terrible I mean horrible....did I say I woke up?? Naaaaa haven't slept since last night. I couldn't sleep kept tossing around and the only proper song I could listen to fit my mood was Drake's doing it wrong so you can just imagine what a horrible night it has been for me. Morning is here aint feeling any better had a lot of message wishing me happy valentine but none of them make sense to me. I'm going crazy I can't even find the words to explain my mood but all I know is I don't want to face the world tonight.....I don't even want to smile to a single soul. Yes my love life has been a failure but whatever!! Someday someone gonna love me too!! Miss Taylor Swift I love you twiny and I hope someday you'll find true love too!!!