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BACK FROM THE DEAD

I tried my best to stay away.....here I am calling again!!!!! When my personal life became an everyday topic in my workplace, I felt like quitting. But I was grounded by my mother’s words. When I stood firm, I discovered that I was a BEAST!!! Yes, I had loved the wrong man and all my dirty linen was washed in public. Everyone had an opinion about the situation; the good and the bad. I was disgraced, humiliated, and made a mockery of by that same man I thought will stand by me any day. A man I held and cherished dearly. I was forced to grow up and stand up for myself when I realized I was alone in this fight.   I wiped my tears, stood up, and decided to push forward in a place that has become toxic for me and had to deal with seeing him. So, I went back to the only coping mechanism I know. That is eating anything and everything I can find until I can feel the pain. And guess what? It came with gaining a lot of weight. I lost myself and at this point, I didn’t care about anyone or an...
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LEARNING

IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN FED LOVE WITH A SPOON, YOU WILL LICK IT OFF A KNIFE AND YOU WILL BLEED. This is one of the favourite quote of my friend Sam. To able to understand this quote, I personally feel that you must go through unrequited love and any form of abusive relationship. t he beginning is this magical, amazing time. But the beginning is not built to last. After the beginning comes the real relationship and if it’s not a match, then things will devolve quickly. What are you really invested in here? A lot of the times we’re in love with the potential of what could have been, not the actual person.  It’s so easy to project our wants and fantasies onto someone, especially someone you hardly know. this devastation we experienced is because of what the other person represented to you. what you’re lusting for isn’t the person, it’s how it used to be. You miss the beginning of the relationship, and you hold onto it as proof that you guys were in love once upon a time. Everyth...
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RANDOM FEELINGS

Hi guys It has been a while and I just came here to tell you that I am finally 28 yaaaay! Okay hold up I didn’t come here to simply say that. I’m sorry I left you all in the dark but I’m back. Are you still mad? Come on!!!! Okay. How have I been? I’ve been good but my mirror says otherwise. Well if we are keeping this page a judgement free zone, at this point I can genuinely say I don't have the foggiest idea. I quit thinking about how I should feel, taking the path of least resistance has been the new me. I pass by the mindset of "goodness this individual did this to me, I deserve that". If you ask me what I’m living for me now, I’ll tell you I’m living for my mother. I’ve stopped caring and thinking about myself and what I want. Presently I'm increasingly centered around what I should accomplish for my mom before I pass on, or she bites the dust. I need that woman to be proud of me and be fulfilled before I drop dead. I realize that is miserable and it makes me ...
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REDEMPTION

Life challenges are definitely not fun but its super worth it. if someone told me I would be saying the “worth it” part, I would stand up and point them out. This particular post marks the end of my writing for 2017; I couldn’t get much done anyway (in terms of writing).   I can’t say it’s my best year yet but I can definitely say it’s the year that has really taught me so many things about myself. it taught me acceptance, letting go and most importantly patience. I found myself getting to know more about God and His ways of doing things for my own good. The first few months was very difficult for me. I was struggling to find my feet and to put me first. I had a few setbacks here and there. I kept holding on to things I thought I deserved then. I leaned on my own understanding to get things done; thereby beating myself up when things didn’t go as I wanted. In all I count myself lucky because now I strongly know and believe that all the things I went through was ...
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THE GRACE OF GOD

A single picture became my motivation to the beginning of this journey. I never wanted to get my picture taken because I knew I had packed on some weight. There came in the comments from my course mates telling me how fat I’ve gotten and so on. Some even went to the extent of saying I’m not coming to class because I said I’ve gained weight; that was sad.  The comments they passed did hurt but it didn’t motivate me to change my lifestyle. As time went by, I got so used to their fat body shaming and comments. But what they didn’t know was the fact that I had already given up on myself: so nothing they said was actually going to push me to change. Even with that I’ll start eating healthy for a minute, hit the gym and give up on that same week. Until my course mate took a picture of me when I wasn’t looking after I had instructed him not to take any picture of me.  A single picture became my motivation to the beginning of this journey. My first look at the pictur...
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25!!!!!

25 25 25…..they say it’s my birthday lol. I thank my Heavenly Father for this day. I truly believe that with Him I am nothing. I am grateful for this new age, his grace and mercies. One thing i also know is that, today is not just my birthday but my mother’s too; if you know what I mean. I sincerely dedicate this day to my mother, Olivia Afia Konadu Nyame.  She has been my biggest inspiration in my life. She taught me how to be a real woman, to have strength and self-respect, and to never give those things away. She brought the world to my feet; even when she couldn’t afford it. She made sure the world loaned it to her…for the sake of her daughter.  All I remember is your back. Walking towards the airport leaving us in your past. Piece by piece, she collected me up off the ground where you abandoned things. Piece by piece she filled the holes that you burned in me at 10years. And you know my mumzy never walks away, she never breaks my hearts, she takes care of th...
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SHED A TEAR

I want to shed a tear, For how I've been made, For how life has treated me. I want to shed a tear, For the chances I've missed, For the times I've wasted. I want to shed a tear, For my poor heart, For how many times it has been broken, For so many years of waiting for something real. I want to shed a tear, For my life, For how 24 years of emptiness has been, For the love and peace there will never be. I want to shed a tear, For the people I've met, For how selfish they have been, For taken me for granted, For draining my soul and energy. I want to shed a tear, For me, For all the things I've lost, For my father, For how distance has separated us. I want to shed a tear, For the baby sister I never had, For walking alone in this world, For not being able to read the note I wrote to her, For dreaming about you everyday, For accepting that there will never be you. I want to shed a tear, For love, For all the men I've lost...
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