AFIA'S DIARY

To me , not to the old me but to the new me. The most amazing, strong, inspired women i turned out to be. Over the years i have had challenges, making bad decisions, giving up on life and all that. I thought all was lost but i was wrong. Now i can boldly say when i look in the mirror i'm proud of myself for overcoming all these challenges and setting up my life right. Yeah of course but not forgetting my two wonderful missionaries Elder Reid and Elder Merrill who brought me closer to Christ with the help of the Holy Spirit to achieve this peace, content and happiness in my life. To me, to the LDS woman i have become. The gradual process of change i am taking to be firm in Christ and to get eternal life. To that very special someone in my life Eric Osei Asenso who is on mission now, thank you for helping me through this process and making me feel loved.....you mean the world to me BAE and i'll love you and cherish you forever. To my mum great lady my superwoman thank you for tak...

I'm so excited today....it was testimony sunday in my church early on and I was given the chance to bear mt testimony in front of the congregation, so was every member even though I didn't do that today so I decided to post it on here : "I'm thankful for my life, I'm really grateful for how far the Good Lord has brought me. At first during sunday mornings I'll just sleep until it was 10am then watch tv afterwards until the day ends but now its different I get to wake up early in the morning on sundays and I get so much excited about going to church. There's a change and this change is good, it has brought me so many blessings in my life. Even from how I relate to people to how I treat and talk to them. I've learned to cultivate the spirit of forgiveness plus I've learned how to pray and read my scriptures. I'm grateful to God for bringing these special people in my life (church members)......I'm thankful for the lives of my two missionaries...

Oh I totally forgot to fill you guys in last week after my baptism. The week after my baptism that was last week sunday I received the GIFT OF THE HOLY GHOST. I was called in front of the congregation, sat on a chair in front of them, three men who had the right PRIESTHOOD AUTHORITY laid their hands on me and one of them (Brother Alexander Kobina) prayed for me to receive the GIFT OF THE HOLY GHOST. I felt a quick chill down my spine when he said "RECEIVE THE GIFT OF THE HOLY GHOST" , it was a brief and magical experience. He said so many good things I needed in his prayer for me ......I really felt good about it and about myself that I had to thank him after church service. After I was prayed for I received my first communion ever since I was born. I renewed the promise and covenant I made with God all over again. I was so much happy and I felt blessed because I never thought a day like that was going to come. Change is good and it can bring so much blessings into your life...

Today my new life begins, Today I have agency. The power to choose right from wrong, the knowledge of Good and Evil. Today I Make a Change, a change that's going to have a huge impact in my life. A change that's going to bring my more joy more joy slogan I've been saying and seeking for so long. Today I'm going to be a new born baby well in Christ though. At first I wasn't sure about it, I hated change....I'm the type that would like to stick to the old things than to make a change, thinking of how scary it will be when I change things. I wasn't comfortable with the 'thing will never be the same' idea. I remember Elder Reid saying 'some change is good and this particular change you making is going to bring you blessings, joy and peace. Elder Merrill said some years back if I told you how I lived my life and now I'm here in Ghana on a mission you won't believe me and trust me I didn't have an idea of what that change they were talking...

Dear God thank you for today and thank you for a change since you didn't answer my prayer last night too......meaning no more humiliation and Sadness this year I hope so though. The first and the last person I called today was mum. I said to her "Fucking New Year Mum!! You and I against another year again Are you ready??" And I heard her laughing...I guess she's. So I asked myself the same question and my answer was I don't know, didn't plan anything for this year. I see nothing special about 2014 anyway.....its probably just another year for the people around me to continue their selfish and wicked deeds. Dear Mum I hope God gives you enough strength and long life to hold me down until I can start flying and Dear please Bless my mum and make her happy! Morning from Ghana!

Difficult year ever! Yh I know nothing good has ever happened in my life that can bring a big change but this year I completely missed out on everything! My luck ran out on me...Love ran out on me! I found myself messing with the wrong people. I broke down infront of the wrong people. Money ran out on me....had to go through humiliation and embarrassment . Did everything right but nothing worked out for me except my weight. Friends I thought I can count on blew me off...they only called when they needed you to do fuck up things for them. People who thought they all the right to trash you because I'm below their standard also did their own thing......took me for granted. Lost some people along the way. Cried and prayed for almost everything hoping for a change but never saw anything, all I saw was wicked and selfish people walking in and out of my life because I was weak to stop them. The difficult part is missing someone you probably will never see again (dad) kept all the things I...

Well if you've been reading closely you should know by now where I started from right?? Good if you don't remember let me take you down to memory lane....from 105.6KG to 76.7KG. The people who really understand what this means will be truly happy and very emotional for me but the bullies you know they will always be dumb. Slow Ride?? Nooo tough Ride Yes especially when you are around all these pessimist. It has been the most painful journey I've ever embarked on. Finding yourself in the process even losing yourself too to be honest....I know there are beautiful times when you fitting into all those beautiful dresses and feeling light but its not just about that. Control is important and if you lose yourself in the process you lose control and that awful feeling sets in.....that's why its so important to lose the weight for you and not for someone else!!!! We gon fight and We will win regardless!!! Keep The Faith