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STARTING WEEK 9....DAY 64-70 AT 87.8KG (193.5LBS)

Oooooook so where do I begin!! There's so much I want to say to make it easier awwww I'm overwhelmed. Honestly so many people thought I wouldn't last on this diet, my neighbours and even my mum did. Mum knows how very weak I am, I'm a pushover so everyday she kept on asking are you going to eat real food today hahaha and I just roll my eyes and go like you know I don't eat that lool but deep down I just wanted to eat that. Yes I admit that I let things get into me even people I don't even know can sooo really get into but this is me. Starting week 9 I hope its going to be successful like week 8. I'm glad I didn't binge last sunday hope this sunday to will be the same!! Honestly I was afraid to take this step but I took it anyway and I'm glad I did!!!! Keep your head up!!! The best way to gain self-confidence is to do what you are afraid to do.

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