SENSITIVE THING FOR ME!

Honestly these past weeks has been tremendously hard for me. I watched myself binged for 3days and couldn't do anything about it!!! Felt bad really bad but couldn't save myself from drowning. I think so far through out the journey today has been difficult for me. As I watched tyronne dissed me on BBM because of my weight! Yes and tears are flowing down my cheeks while writing this. His words really hit me real hard and couldn't even say anything negative about his looks to him. Really hit and I know most of you all going through the same thing can feel my pain. What kind of people do that?? but its all good beacause I'm winning this battle and that's the most important thing! I'm not ashamed I'm proud of my body and I'm proud of how far I've come!! May God have mercy on this mean people!!! Never Give Up!!

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REDEMPTION

Life challenges are definitely not fun but its super worth it. if someone told me I would be saying the “worth it” part, I would stand up and point them out. This particular post marks the end of my writing for 2017; I couldn’t get much done anyway (in terms of writing). I can’t say it’s my best year yet but I can definitely say it’s the year that has really taught me so many things about myself. it taught me acceptance, letting go and most importantly patience. I found myself getting to know more about God and His ways of doing things for my own good. The first few months was very difficult for me. I was struggling to find my feet and to put me first. I had a few setbacks here and there. I kept holding on to things I thought I deserved then. I leaned on my own understanding to get things done; thereby beating myself up when things didn’t go as I wanted. In all I count myself lucky because now I strongly know and believe that all the things I went through was ...

SHED A TEAR

I want to shed a tear, For how I've been made, For how life has treated me. I want to shed a tear, For the chances I've missed, For the times I've wasted. I want to shed a tear, For my poor heart, For how many times it has been broken, For so many years of waiting for something real. I want to shed a tear, For my life, For how 24 years of emptiness has been, For the love and peace there will never be. I want to shed a tear, For the people I've met, For how selfish they have been, For taken me for granted, For draining my soul and energy. I want to shed a tear, For me, For all the things I've lost, For my father, For how distance has separated us. I want to shed a tear, For the baby sister I never had, For walking alone in this world, For not being able to read the note I wrote to her, For dreaming about you everyday, For accepting that there will never be you. I want to shed a tear, For love, For all the men I've lost...

THE GRACE OF GOD

A single picture became my motivation to the beginning of this journey. I never wanted to get my picture taken because I knew I had packed on some weight. There came in the comments from my course mates telling me how fat I’ve gotten and so on. Some even went to the extent of saying I’m not coming to class because I said I’ve gained weight; that was sad. The comments they passed did hurt but it didn’t motivate me to change my lifestyle. As time went by, I got so used to their fat body shaming and comments. But what they didn’t know was the fact that I had already given up on myself: so nothing they said was actually going to push me to change. Even with that I’ll start eating healthy for a minute, hit the gym and give up on that same week. Until my course mate took a picture of me when I wasn’t looking after I had instructed him not to take any picture of me. A single picture became my motivation to the beginning of this journey. My first look at the pictur...

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